It’s a Sunday afternoon and I’m drinking my cup of coffee. Don’t ask me what number this is for the day…. I truly couldn’t tell you. My family is sleeping after a crazy day of Sunday events that always take place when you’re married to a pastor. For years I have always wanted to share the truth about being a pastors wife or just my own personal feelings, but heaven forbid we do that….the whole damn church might fall apart. Why you ask? Because as a pastors wife it’s my job to love others, smile, wave like a frickin princess. My feelings and thoughts are not wanted. Every other person in the church is allowed to share their feelings….but not me. I can’t say that we cater to the old folks or that someone was rude as hell. No, I’m supposed to suck it up because I’m married to the pastor. I can’t post my views on social media because that would cause my husband lots of extra headaches to deal with…. and by that I mean spiritually immature individuals who want to have their pastors and their wives conservative republicans or holy and pious because wasn’t Jesus a white, middle class, Republican? No…. I don’t get to be frustrated with the church or people. I have to smile, wave and act like everything is fine despite church politics, or that the pastor went 2 minutes over his sermon time and we didn’t get out right at noon. Friends, I’ve waited a long time to write this blog, but the day is here. I have enough content to keep us going quite a while, but I thought I would let you know that this blog is not for the faint of heart.
I plan to use the entire English vocabulary – curse words and all – gasp! And you might even hear me talk about politics! But I can assure you of one thing ….and that is that I will not be fake. I will not hold my tongue and I will not act like everything is ok. I don’t get to share my feelings as the regular pastor’s wife because if I did …. well my husband might not have a job. So this space gives me anonymity and lets me use that sailor mouth my mother taught me and yet would gasp if she actually heard me speak it. I do plan on mostly talking about love and Jesus and hypocrisy that I want to address ….So thanks for joining me. Feel free to leave comments – but if their nasty… I probably won’t read them.